Pregnant, Loving it or not

Life throws you all kinds of frisbees. This time it was a baby. I am 18 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow and am due March 7th. At first I had very mixed emotions: excitement, fulfillment, anticipation, but also stress and resentment. I was pretty sick and felt very resentful that I had to go through this, while Wayne was still hunky dory with no problems. I also kept thinking, "I didn't ask for this! I don't even want to have a baby right now, and certainly don't want to be pregnant." Fortunately, most of the morning sickness has passed and I only throw up on the bad days (about three times a week). I've gotten to hear my little one's heartbeat twice now and I have an ultrasound scheduled on October 19th! i am finally getting to the good parts of pregnancy. My stomach is starting to really expand and now, just about all of my pants are a little tight. I actually like seeing my growing belly, the only bad part is that I just look fat to those who don't know I'm pregnant. I think I'm going to only wear maternity clothing or empire waist shirts from now on so that people will assume pregnancy.
I had no idea how much pregnancy changes your body but I've quickly realized that almost every part of your body changes- it is the weirdest thing. Most things are bad for me: really dry skin, urinary infections, having to take a pill everyday, gas and bloating, constipation, weird circulation, headaches, being really tired all the time, having the most super sensitive sniffer, getting used to new feelings of hunger and of how much and how often you must eat, and of coarse the worst, puking A LOT. The only good thing that I've experienced as far as my body goes (besides just thinking of the miracle of a growing baby that is taking place inside of me) is that my boobs have just about doubled in size! But is that really a plus? It's kind of annoying to have to keep buying bras. Anywhose-it, I hope that wasn't too much information, but I just wanted to share some of the things that were happening to me. Although a lot of it is bad and irritating, it really isn't that bad, especially compared to so many other women.

Really, I am so excited for everything baby, and I can't wait to hold my baby for the first time!

Hey hey hey! The semester is almost over and I'm already singing about it! Isn't it funny that I want school to be over so bad, but as soon as I graduate, I just know that I will miss it terribly. The opportunities you get in University (a Canadian phrase) are once in a life time. I love BYU. But I also love having no homework. :) So Wayne and I are headed to good old Dutch John tonight to celebrate Christs resurrection with colorful eggs and candy! This Easter will be a particularly special one- sad but special- because my gratitude for the Savior and the resurrection and the whole plan of happiness have really been magnified since my mother's passing. I've realized how much I need the savior and at times, the hope he gives us, is all I have to cling to. How wonderful it is that I can be with my dear mommy again. My whole family can be with her again and this time it will be forever, never having to experience the tragedy of death again. And we can all live together in the presence of God (heavenly father and mother) and Christ. What a wonderful, hopeful thought. And it's not fantasy- it's absolutely real. So HAPPY EASTER!

Another delightful holiday to talk about is April Fools. I celebrated that one! I showed Wayne a positive pregnancy test. My friend had her pregnant friend take it and then I showed it to Wayne and convinced him that I was carrying his child. HA HA HA! oh man, that was a good one. He is going to be such a cute dad someday.

Homework is a Real Drag

Like most things that make you a better person, homework is a real drag. It stretches us to our limits, is a drudgery, and all of us except super nerds (whom I respect) would much rather be doing something else.
Speaking about homework, I better go do some.