Life throws you all kinds of frisbees. This time it was a baby. I am 18 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow and am due March 7th. At first I had very mixed emotions: excitement, fulfillment, anticipation, but also stress and resentment. I was pretty sick and felt very resentful that I had to go through this, while Wayne was still hunky dory with no problems. I also kept thinking, "I didn't ask for this! I don't even want to have a baby right now, and certainly don't want to be pregnant." Fortunately, most of the morning sickness has passed and I only throw up on the bad days (about three times a week). I've gotten to hear my little one's heartbeat twice now and I have an ultrasound scheduled on October 19th! i am finally getting to the good parts of pregnancy. My stomach is starting to really expand and now, just about all of my pants are a little tight. I actually like seeing my growing belly, the only bad part is that I just look fat to those who don't know I'm pregnant. I think I'm going to only wear maternity clothing or empire waist shirts from now on so that people will assume pregnancy.
I had no idea how much pregnancy changes your body but I've quickly realized that almost every part of your body changes- it is the weirdest thing. Most things are bad for me: really dry skin, urinary infections, having to take a pill everyday, gas and bloating, constipation, weird circulation, headaches, being really tired all the time, having the most super sensitive sniffer, getting used to new feelings of hunger and of how much and how often you must eat, and of coarse the worst, puking A LOT. The only good thing that I've experienced as far as my body goes (besides just thinking of the miracle of a growing baby that is taking place inside of me) is that my boobs have just about doubled in size! But is that really a plus? It's kind of annoying to have to keep buying bras. Anywhose-it, I hope that wasn't too much information, but I just wanted to share some of the things that were happening to me. Although a lot of it is bad and irritating, it really isn't that bad, especially compared to so many other women.
Really, I am so excited for everything baby, and I can't wait to hold my baby for the first time!
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Oh Angel! The joys of pregnancy... yes I remember how very uncomfortable it is, but still looking back, it was the most miraculous experience... the whole process of becoming a mother is such a blessing, one that Wayne will never know, men dont go through the pain, but they also dont know the miracle as strongly as we women get to. The pain is what makes it so incredible... its a lot of work, and so worth it!!! I am so happy for you and Wayne... you two are so stinkin cute! Your going to be awesome parents... and Im sure you'll look back and know that this was just the right time to have a baby! Best of luck!!!
ReplyDeleteoh, and my boobs grew a lot during pregnancy, but now that Im nursing, they are huge! Buying bras is very annoying... I agree! But you might still need to buy more!
ReplyDeleteAngel, I am so excited for you guys to join the parenthood club. There really is nothing quite like it, as I am sure you have heard already (the ups and downs of having kids). I am sorry that you have had such a hard pregnancy so far. I wish I could give you some advice on how to combat all the bad things you wrote about, puking, dry skin, gas and bloating, headaches, taking a pill everyday...that really does sound awful. I have been blessed to never have experienced any of that in any of my pregnancies but I must admit I think you are blessed for having your boobs grow! I never had that with pregnancy or breastfeeding (I am sure Ryan would have loved it if it did happen and I am sure Wayne is enjoying it too:)) And keep in mind that just because Wayne isn't experiencing all the pregnancy symptoms that you are he is dealing with his own issues now too. The stress of being a student with a new baby, supporting a baby, etc. We love you guys and can't wait to hear the results of your ultrasound! Keep in touch more!
ReplyDeleteAngel, you will make it through it. I'm a few weeks ahead of you and let me tell you it does get better. Though I'm started into my third trimester and things are starting to look down again. I just keep telling myself it will all be worth it when I get to hold my little baby for the first time. Congrats and I'm way excited for you guys.
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